You never think it can happen. Losing a friend is just unthinkable when things are going so well. Day in and day out their there for you, with a smile every morning and your favorite hot beverage accompany by a warm bagel. You two are inseparable, together every minute of the day. Through the tough days, just when you think the day will never end, their there holding strong. Through the long nights that drag on and on, eyes so weighed their there holding strong, keeping your cup of Joe hot and ready, never letting u down.
Then the unthinkable happens, after all it did and all the time you spent together. You do the most horrible thing you can do. After all the places you seen together, adventures you've been thew. You betray your Friend and abandon them, just setting them on top of your car getting in and driving off. You don't even think twice, until 30 min later as you reach down to grab the handle .....you grab thin air, a feeling of panic rushes thew you. As you reach around the cab of the car nothing is there, as you curse under your breath you come to the realization of what you did ......
the best two years a mug has ever gave me, doing it duty day in and day out, keeping my cup of Joe hot and fresh....as tom hanks said so well in losing a good friend WILSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sorry,(sniff ,sniff) Wilson I'm sorry.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Off the grid!
Escape we did, where who cares, some place beautiful. Escape from our daily routine, our worries, TV our cell phones and i guess just people in general. To reset our compass, what a joy to be able to enjoy my best friend my wife, to just enjoy each other and our children in the most beautiful settings i can imagine. I can say I was able to be one on one with my children, so alive and curious they are. I say one on one because with daily routine of things I find myself being a parent more then a father, by parent i mean, do this and don't do this and why did you that, please quiet down....... which is need they need parenting but with schedule its sometimes all they hear.
Due to part of my upbringing? yes, but i am thankful. My father how do say, was distant, he would try to get close but was always driving back to ways he was raised, the only way he knew from his father. He knew this and struggled with it as I do. As many of us do from are up bringing, but my father effort to improve form his father and I from mine is a continue effort, an effort I hope I can see in my children as they grow and learn form me.
So the time we have together with no outside influences is treasured. I find my self able to let myself a be father (take my parent shield off) with out constraints of time, and schedules. To see my children play, explore, learn, connect as family and remember. A good feeling to relish.
I was able to reflect on things to see where I am as a husband, a father. What are my faults, am I paying attention to whats important or just letting my life run on auto pilot and some day wake up saying what happened?. A self evaluation if you will, out in the open, your wife and your children as your harshest critics because they care and love you, and as they enjoy their time and letting loose, finding themselves, their not going to put up with crap ,as i with theirs,its being true to each other. There's no running to a different part of the house, or escaping to the store, putting things on hold for work. Its here and now lets be open, lets be true, lets be a family......and we did.
With our compass reset and our souls re amped we become stronger upon are our return.
Due to part of my upbringing? yes, but i am thankful. My father how do say, was distant, he would try to get close but was always driving back to ways he was raised, the only way he knew from his father. He knew this and struggled with it as I do. As many of us do from are up bringing, but my father effort to improve form his father and I from mine is a continue effort, an effort I hope I can see in my children as they grow and learn form me.
So the time we have together with no outside influences is treasured. I find my self able to let myself a be father (take my parent shield off) with out constraints of time, and schedules. To see my children play, explore, learn, connect as family and remember. A good feeling to relish.
I was able to reflect on things to see where I am as a husband, a father. What are my faults, am I paying attention to whats important or just letting my life run on auto pilot and some day wake up saying what happened?. A self evaluation if you will, out in the open, your wife and your children as your harshest critics because they care and love you, and as they enjoy their time and letting loose, finding themselves, their not going to put up with crap ,as i with theirs,its being true to each other. There's no running to a different part of the house, or escaping to the store, putting things on hold for work. Its here and now lets be open, lets be true, lets be a family......and we did.
With our compass reset and our souls re amped we become stronger upon are our return.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Why should I finish?
Ever start a book that you cant put down? Of course you have. I have to may of times and have always found myself wanting not to finish. Not wanting the pages to end like a best friend you hope never moves away or a time in your youth you wish time could have stopped and you be happy to stay in that moment forever. You cant wait for the next chance you can pick it up and continue your adventure. You might even try to drive and read [not recommend by the way not from experience or anything, even walk and read is a challenge] An adventure you lose yourself in, you are completely in engaged with your character. The author has taking you away to his world his every word you carefully dicifer and every turn of the page you have to remember to take a deep breath before you drown in anticipation of whats to come. As your thoughts revolve around your heroine, you cant help put feel that this world and time you have engulf your self in cant end. But suddenly you find your self at the last chapter, every flip of the next page takes closer and closer to the end. You pause and remember all the challenges, mishaps and victories your character has endured. How you been there every step of the way asking why? and what the hell! Maybe even composing yourself after an experience that you closely relate to and hits a little to close to home, sometimes searching for the tattered and frayed pages, because you flung it out of sight in anger or disbelief. How dare it challenge you had what you feel and live by. Put you beg for more with every word you digest you become more famished. Knowing the end of the characters journey and authors natives are concluding,not wanting the experience to come to and end leaving you with an unbearable after taste, you pause....... asking yourself Why should I finish?
Friday, February 22, 2008
New to this but here goes......
Well I'm blogging. Were what?! I'm blogging you know i guess you write about your day.
What! Why in the hell would you what to do that?! I don't no, maybe so I can express myself and my thoughts about stuff. What! Nobody cares what you think about! Yeah your probably right, most likely ill offend someone or say something about my employer and get fired and get accused of being a terrorist or something racial. Now your thinking man you scared me their for a second. Ya but this whole blogging thing might be kinda cool, in a way i could have a so called record of my so called life as you would say. OK, ok i see just in case you disappear like the Mayans or something, so everyone will know u existed, what a joke. Hay man my life's not a joke. It will be once you post it for all the world to see! ha! ha! You know what screw you and the so called world you see and hear. I am going to be a blogger and if you cant stand knowing what I think and feel then so be it. I don't care, if I fill cyberspace up with a whole bunch of crap about my life, then so be it. Hear me scream in anger, laugh about myself, cry, love and live, here i go watch out! OK man jeez no need to yell, go on with your blog self.
What! Why in the hell would you what to do that?! I don't no, maybe so I can express myself and my thoughts about stuff. What! Nobody cares what you think about! Yeah your probably right, most likely ill offend someone or say something about my employer and get fired and get accused of being a terrorist or something racial. Now your thinking man you scared me their for a second. Ya but this whole blogging thing might be kinda cool, in a way i could have a so called record of my so called life as you would say. OK, ok i see just in case you disappear like the Mayans or something, so everyone will know u existed, what a joke. Hay man my life's not a joke. It will be once you post it for all the world to see! ha! ha! You know what screw you and the so called world you see and hear. I am going to be a blogger and if you cant stand knowing what I think and feel then so be it. I don't care, if I fill cyberspace up with a whole bunch of crap about my life, then so be it. Hear me scream in anger, laugh about myself, cry, love and live, here i go watch out! OK man jeez no need to yell, go on with your blog self.
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